in the land of gods and monsters i was an angel livin in the garden of evil.

you look the best when i can't see.
love is blind, and you love me.

a homicidal maniac, i kill myself each day.
resuscitationg part of my bruised ego,
with the sole purpose of a perverse death.
i am my own brutal foe.
a sadist and a narcissist.
my multiple selves cannot coexist.
a constant civil war, the least civil of all things.
i wake to find the casualties each day brings.

i may be just a little girl, but i'm not so naive.
no one has ever cared, but they always leave.
i'm not so silly or dumb or so quick to judge.
i may be a little girl, but i can hold a big grudge.

don't be gentle, don't be kind
love is dead but i'm still blind.

she was a girl, a girl of innocence and youth.
she did not know lies, she did not yet know truth.

he is soft like the first snow
and he sounds like rain.
he and i are the same.

his body was like a tower,
structurally sound and refined.
his mind was like a flower,
it was wilting, always in decline.
but his madness was beauty
and his soul was old.
he holds me like a new born baby,
but to the rest he is cold.

fashion inspiration: effy stonem, cassie ainsworth, violet e, the virgin suicides, the 60's and 90's, marilyn monroe, audrey hepburn, lana del rey, sky ferriera, marina and the diamonds, annie wilson, gillian zinser, erin silver, rachel lynch, elle ribera, jessica celebre.

angels and devils meet in my insides.
dueling inside my dual, twisted mind.
until my two selves join together as one.
the intermingling cannot be undone.